Silverscapes

“I want to be somebody’s Jerry” - A line from P.S. I love you. Daniel says it to Holly (widowed months ago) after she calls him Jerry (the widower).

I feel the depth of that statement. Recently i said goodbye to a few of you.. if you are even reading (know your not). Not because i think your unworthy, or unspecial, or a horrible person. I became invisible to you, and i cannot feel that anymore. It only adds to the emptiness inside. It aches, and drives me to push away all that i care about.. but which does not care about me. Self preservation. Desperation to rid myself of this never ending emptiness.

Maybe you will understand.